Sunday, July 17, 2005
hey i havent been here in a little while. my dad is gone as u prolly kno from my myspace. umm at the moment that stupid thing is being jewish cuz i can only go to like 3 profiles or so im not sure exactly how many but its 4 or under so yeah im guessing 3. ummmm as most of u kno well i think u kno but im not sure weather or not u have picked up on it or not but neways for some time i have been depressed but not so much nemore. yeah i still miss her and have all the same feelings for her but recently i have just felt like, well that guy from office space ya kno very passive of everything it feels great. i still get angry at things and stuff like that but i dunno. cant say i dont like this feeling cuz it compleatly covers up the feeling of lonlyness that i have. damn i really spelled that wrong. picture this, at sometime every one tries to hide a feeling from someone. now true i do it with all of them all of the time but imagin if you could not just hide them from others but also yourself. dont get this confused with being numb ive been that one hell of alot its not the same. you igknolage your feelings but you just dont take them into concideration. its great at least for now but who cares about time in advance
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1:50 AM
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