Sunday, May 15, 2005
aparently im a lier?.....
hey its ben a while sense i have been on this thing. myspace wont let me into my own account so i cant go on that. oh well it wasnt letting me go to most of the profiles on my friends list neways. well i guess i should fill those pf you who still read this on on wut is new with me. im still going out with chelsea. she has been getting meaner and meaner l8ly but not enought to make me dump her. she thinks that everything i have ever told her is a lie and is ed at me for that witch i think is compleat bullshi tcuz i have never once givin her a reason to belive that im a lier so really im not sure wut to do about it she said that she wants to belive me but cant bring herself to do it and its going to be a long time before she can belive me again. i bet u think this would make me mad huh? well it dont to tell the truth it just hurts is all.....
ive picked up drinking again im not proud of it or nething like that so dont get me wrong. im actually trying to stop and i have been slowing down alot. i dont kno. i just dont like this place at all. im tired of this vacation to the dessert and am ready to come home now.i really miss you guys and wish that you would call. even if its only every once in a blue moon. i really need to talk to someone although im not sure wut about i just hurt inside real bad. to tell the truth i want to cut up my wrists legs chest face nething i dont want to be on this stupid planet nemore im tired of it. fuk the world ya kno?.......i just...........well if u read this call me some one neone even if i dont kno you and u stumble across this site call i kno i left my number in at least one other post on this damn thing........bye
|| dosn't matter's satiated ||
8:35 PM
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